First post

Ok, here goes nothing.

It's been for a while now that I've had this need to create a blog. I don't know why, it's just to let out steam I suppose, for random ramble, to let people I care about to know a little about my current situation, where I am in my life, my feelings, my thoughts etc. I guess I fear I'm losing touch with my friends around the world and that worries me. Losing friends is like losing pieces of myself.

English is not my mother-tongue, I speak French everyday since summer 2006 and my Finnish is degrading by the minute. I chose to use English for my blog since it is the easiest choice - for everyone.

So forgive my errors, typos and bizarre expressions.

So my story short :

I'm 100% Finnish, born 6th of January 1985 in Helsinki to be the 5th and youngest member of my family, studied in the French-Finnish School of Helsinki from 1990 to 2004. For 10 years I was picked on by various members of my class which resulted to inferiority complexes, depression and self-hate.

(Don't worry, everything's fine now)

I started going to clubs at the legal age of 18, and with the help of healthy doses of alcohol started to shed my timid skin. Good times :)

I had my first REAL crush at 18, broke and lost my heart and took 3 years to get over it, with the help of my first boyfriend with whom I stayed for more than a year. Love never bloomed, my heart stayed hidden.

In 2004 after finishing my studies, I took a year's class in art (yes, I like to draw) at a private school in Karjaa. There I met Jenni who became my best friend, whom I still adore even if we never speak anymore. She lives in England with her boyfriend. I long to see her, to hug her, to talk to her. I ignore if she still remembers me. I love her and hope that we can restart keeping in touch. I'm not good with letters.. I'm at fault.

In 2006, I took a risk (since I found myself too boring) and came to France to work at Disneyland Paris for the summer. At the end of the contract I returned to Finland and a started to show signs of depression (the fact that my ex-boyfriend managed to dump truckloads of shit on me didn't help), so I finally decided to return to Disney and stay for good.

I returned to my old job, working at the Kodak shop in the first park. I was attacked by the girls in my shop because of jealousy. I had created a deep friendship with my teamleader (much older than me) that for him was much more. It was a rocky relationship, but thanks to him I am now where I sit.

I stayed in total 2 years working at Disney.

The 2 worst years of my life if you ask me.

I met wonderful people like Anja, Marja, Matleena and Hanna that I still have to chance to stay in contact with, dated a few boys briefly, and made beautiful memories.

During the second year I enrolled to the only FREE beautician school in Paris (+300 enrolled, 18 were accepted) and graduated in summer 2008.

Just to make it clear, I worked at Disney during the weekend whilst at the same time studying from Mon-Fri at the school. No free days, no free time, 3h/day in the publics transports, too much to learn, too little pay.

So in 2008 in August I finally QUIT Disney (YESSSS) and decided to continue my studies with a Brevet Professionnel for 2 years. I moved to Paris to Montparnasse, where I had a room mate from hell who made my life hell. No one was able to do shit to help my situation with little miss Princess who's life long wish was to become Britney Spears, to marry a rich man so that she could just sit on her fat ass and do nothing to gain money. All she wanted was to party, drink and shop. She ended up in the psych ward. I hear she's still being treated.

So in order to be able to be accepted in the school I had to find a beauty salon to work in. I had the greatest luck to find Institut Pyrène.

(About luck; I have a TOO-lucky brother and a "normal" sister and I have to make my own luck since Lady Luck shaded her eyes when I was born).

I managed to tolerate studying for 2 more years and gratuated in July this year.

I have a CAP and a BP.

I now work full-time at Institut Pyrène and love it.

I enjoy everything I do there, but was I love most is permanent make-up. (Yes, I tattoo peoples' faces since May this year.)

In 2009, Lady Luck opened her eyes and via Facebook led me to meet the shade of my heart. When I met him, he was incredibly shy, tall, handsome and intelligent. The moment I saw him I knew. I knew I had found something, but it was only after a while that I realised that I had found my missing heart.

Today we live and love together.

That's about all there is to know about me. I talk a lot, I like my solitude, I am shy, cold, caring, I love him, I miss my friends, have been dieting for 1½ years (+1 year using the method Paleo, ~3 months using the Dukan diet), am a fan of tea, have discovered the horrible plaisir of internet shopping, regret not seeing my family more than once a year and hope this blog will help keep in touch.

I'll surely write tout et n'importe quoi, stress about my weight, rant about my customers, post pics and share my thoughts. Feel free to comment or just leave a post for whatever reason. Bare with me.