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Sunday, December 18, 2011

Just a note to say that I feel like shit.
I'm having one of my bad weeks.. well, more like days.
But still bad.
It's horrible.
It always happens before I go to Finland. Why is that ?
I want my family to see me happy and well and what do I do ?
I do my best to make me physically (over eating) and thus mentally ill.
I wish it wouldn't happen.. Well. I still have like 4 days before I get to see them and luckily I work. It helps when I'm not home alone..
Off I go.


Friday, November 18, 2011

Pain.

My foot kinda aches.
Ok, it does not KINDA ache, it really aches.

I went to see the "doctor" Nico who works with us, after having told my boss lady what had happened Saturday evening.
She of course was sorry for me and claimed to be worried.
But that didn't stop her from coming to tell Nico not to put me on sick leave.
Surtout, ne la mettez pas en arrêt!
Right.
He prescribed an antiseptic ointment to be applied morning and evening under the bandage.

So the day after it hurt in a weird way. I went to see a doctor during my lunch break, who told me that the wound was infected and I was probably suffering from an allergic reaction due to the ointment. So he cleaned the wound, prescribed another antiseptic ointment, antibiotics and a cold cream for the burn.

Wednesday was still difficult, I limp at work and well, it just hurts.

Yesterday I went for a check-up of my IUD.
Everything was perfect didn't feel a thing and all was good.
I showed her the burn and she said it didn't look good. It's true that my foot has started to swell pretty horribly. I can hardly fit my foot into my large ballerinas... :(
But all became better once hunny came home <3
I had missed him. He brought me Toffifee and 2 small tablets of chocolate :D I felt bad because I hadn't even been able to go get him the new Zelda...

And he offered to accompany to the foot surgeon the following day at 9a.m. He drove me there and waited while the doc received me. Like they say it here, c'est un amour.
I tried to say that it was not necessary for him to come with me, but he insisted. He really wants to protect me..
The Doc looked at my burn and prescribed me something else than the 2 other doctors.
Gah.

But we fixed a date for the operation ! I just need to run that by my boss to see if it's ok with her.
Oh and we asked about spending part of my sick leave post operation (3months) in Slovenia with Olivier and he said it could maybe be possible. We just have to see if I could still get paid whilst abroad..
À voir.

Today since we got up pretty early, after getting home from grocery shopping, we went to take a well earned nap. 4 hours of napping. :D
We woke up at 4:30p.m. Oliv got up before because he was starving, me I stayed snoozing until he told me that there was a small documentary on Eminem on the telly. That made me jumps out of bed. :D

Oh, and I finished a drawing for my brother.
I hope he likes it. He didn't ask for it or anything, but he did make me make changes to some minor details. Knowing that erasing color pencils from paper can be a bit difficult, I didn't do a good job of it...................
oh well, here it is, Ari.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

The whole body suffers when cursed with a stupid head.

I am so hung over now.
At one point I was afraid I was going to die from it.
Now I'm just afraid I won't be able to.

We celebrated a colleagues birthday yesterday by eating and drinking at the beauty salon after work and relaxing in the hammam.
Just, in my case, the relaxation had a price to be paid.
I managed to put my foot in front of the hot steam exit tube, which isn't covered or protected in any was, making it very easy to place your leg next to it.
The meeting between ankle and tube was very short, but it left a painful memory.
It started to make 5 small blisters, looking very harmless.

The rest of the night went well, I had other things to occupy my mind and take away the pain (alcohol), but in the morning................
The burn is the size of a tennis ball, slightly bigger, half of it is covered in big blisters and the other half doesn't even have skin to cover it.
Jihhaa.
And to make my day even better, I have a horrible hangover from Hell. I mean, really....
Beurgh.
And bruises make my legs look prettier... Argh.

I'm drawing a new char portrait for my brother. Hope he'll like it, I do :)
It's not even near finished, but since I decide the position, the look etc, it's less forced, thus more fun to draw. I hope to be able to continue it today.. I wouldn't want to risk vomiting on it..

Yesterday was good.
I really was wasted but at the same time very conscious of what I was doing.
The girl were quite catastrofied for me tho. They kept running after me, pushing Olivier to go get me etc. They really are cute and nice. hihihih.
Oh how ridiculed I will be starting from tomorrow........ :D

Olivier left for Slovenia..
I'm already missing him.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Tortilla chips.

Last Sunday I went for a run with my colleagues for the second time.
They lasted 30mins. Made me proud :D We stayed stretching quite some time after our run and I taught them the arm killer move, the "piu piu" (the sound birds make in French).
I looks really innocent, you don't feel a think when you do it, but 2 days afterwards the girls were still cursing my name ;D

I saw a very good friend Monday evening. We did our basic beautician training course together and she's the only one from that class that I stay in touch with.
Z just moved not far from my workplace, it's like 10min from door to door.
She received me in her tiny 9m2 apartment where she had prepared us Phô soup and her mom's homemade spring rolls straight from Vietnam.
I ate like a pig.
Well only because she repeatedly refilled my bowl all the while ignoring my puny protests. Oh but it was sooooo goood...... Miam.

Tuesday was good work wise, the day was pretty much packed and filled with nice clients.
I ate too much peanut butter in the evening tho..... that thing is like a frigging drug !!
Like tortilla chips............... gah. Don't get me started...

My step-dad is in Sri Lanka at the moment, leading the construction of the houses.
Oliv's parents left today for their vacation there and are supposed to meet him in Galle in a few weeks :) That's so funny. I hope they meet and get along. Hihhiih..
I've also started exchanging e-mails with him. I really enjoy it, reading about his day, telling him stupid jokes etc.
I feel closer to him. I've always really liked him, but I've never really spoken to him alone, or had some "thing" with involved just the two of us.
Mom called me on Sunday and she was like "I hear you've been sending mails to each other. MMM-H." Pfff :D

Tonight's zumba was without Cat because she's on vacation with JD.
And for some reason, I KNEW that we wouldn't be having our regular zumba instructor, but someone to replace him.
I was a tall, pale, blonde lady. I liked her class, I was dripping sweat at the end, but it was kinda nice. I felt like I had actually done something. Hehe.
The other girls were just snobby and mean I think.. they kept whispering mean things about her, which I think was just caused by the fact that they had a hard time following the choreography since it kept changing all the time.
Oh well.
The thing that gave away her true identity, was the third song that started playing.
I almost fell on my face when I heard it.
It was the Finnish celebration song for when we won the Hockey World Cup of 2011.
I stumbled my way through the whole song, trying to follow the choreo, but I couldn't stop listening to the song xD
After class I went and inquired her nationality.
We later on exchanged our names and I already added her to my FB friends list.
Hohoh. We Finns are everywhere, creeping to every corner of the Earth, working every job and slowly etching towards world domination.

True story.

Tomorrow we eat okonomiyaki ! And I'll finally get to present Oliv to Z and vice versa. So cool :D



Sunday, October 30, 2011

The Return of Hobbes !

Haaa.....
I just came back from a morning run with 2 fellow colleagues.
They've gone running together for a few weeks now, just on Sundays tho. I heard them talking about it last week at decided to tag along. And since they run in Les Tuileries and I live outside of Paris, I decided not to be a slob and take the public transportation, but to use Hobbes instead !
So I asked my colleague who lives not far from the park if I could leave my bike at her place for the duration of our jog.

So hop, I take the bike, we meet at her place and go for a short run.
It really was short. 2 kms apparently. I could've kept going but nah, I figured that with all my pedaling, my sport quota for today would be met :)
We stayed talking for awhile afterwards, I mostly listened, like always.

The ride home was nice.
Since it's Sunday, there's very little traffic. So even biking in Concorde wasn't that scary.
I came back to an empty home. Chéri went to play with the boys, which I already knew, but he had filled my candy tin with plenty of yumminess ! Om nom. After a morning of sportiness, there's nothing like too much candy to make up for it ;D

So Olivier might have to go to Slovenia for his job.
First he had told me it was for just a few days but now apparently it's for 6 months.
GAH. Well, I'll get back to that when it becomes d'actualité.

Work is always good.
I finally started my electrolysis training. :) And since boss lady is on vacation, I retouched my colleagues eyeliner. hehee.

Argh, I need to study my japanese! I'm way behind schedule.
Candy will help me concentrate! ;)

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Lentils.

I love lentils.
Just so you know. :)

What has happened lately?
Well for one the weather has turned colder. I've been using my winter jacket, just to show you how cold it is!
I was even on sick leave for 5 days last week. It was ok. Kinda sucked to be alone and knowing that I was losing precious pay, but I needed it.

I saw the first friend I made in France when I started working in Disney, and on two occasions to boot ! Last Thursday she came to our place and I did some lash extensions on her ^^
The products I bought are good. Apparently the glue holds well and the lashes didn't seem any different from the ones we use in Work.
I asked her to advertise for me so that I could turn the things I had bought into benefice. Hoho.
In the evening we went to eat japanese. it was really, really, really good.
Not the sushi, maki, sashimi stuff. Nah, ramen, curry, noodles !! Miam.

On Friday I went to see her at Disney. She still works there and lives not far. I went to see her flat, and we watched "Arrietty" together. I pretty good film. Made me smile and laugh out loud.
She showed me the keychains and jewelry she makes using this thing called Magic paper. The most popular brand is Shrinky Dinks. I was pretty blown away by it !
I started to plan different sculptures with wings or other accessories. So I went to the internet, researched everything and bought me a butt load. We'll see if I ever use 'em....... I'd better..
Anyways, I really had a great time with her, we went to tour Disney Village, we ate at Annette's Diner and went to her place and watched Stardust. Cute film that one too :)

At work, I am no longer allowed to have models for lash extensions, since my boss deems me qualified for pro work. Ok. I don't mind that kind of evaluation :D
That means that she will surely want to put me to work on electrolysis. Sure, why not.
Work is good tho, slow, but good.

I acquired the 14th installment in my WDCC figurines. I bought Santa Jack :D
He is pretty. Not my favorite, but ok.

Oooh ! And we got our credit cards for our joint bank account ! They are all shiny and new ^^
We bought our tickets for Finland last week. Yay ! We are goiiiiiiing !!
Oh all the Christmas foods and treats..... 8D~~~~

I've been continuing letter sending with friends. :) At least when there are some that reply. Sad that they are so busy that they have no time for themselves.. :(
I do miss them..

I reaaaaaally should start painting now..........I'm way past the kinda promised date............gah.
Oh that reminds me.
Olivier's parents want me to paint on their wall :D In their bathroom.
I was touched. Ho.
Umm.. I guess that's all.... Oh no wait ! I decided that Sunday's I could eat candy and desserts and other things good, and that Olivier would be the one to decide on the quantity and quality of 'em. He is the Candy Keeper, the Master of the Treats. He takes hit job veeeeeery seriously :D
I love that about him. He's too cute to be true <3

I guess that's all for today. Don't know what else to say. Nothing's really happened so....
Toodledoo !

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Departure.

Whenever either one of us, Olivier or myself, would leave to work or school or an appointment etc, we would always bid our farewells with a hug or a kiss for the sleepy one.

Today I woke up to an empty bed, him long gone, no note, no kiss, no hug, no nothing.
Yeah, he woke up at 6a.m. so what ?! I need my farewell routine !!
Boo....... boohoohoo....
Evil boy.

He must be upset because he wasn't smart enough to buy me a Jack Skellington figurine on eBay.
We almost fought about it because I didn't want him to pay for something I wanted in front of me.
Yes I know, it's silly.
We'll see.

So I haven't been posting alot lately.
I don't know why. Lots of things have happened and .. well.. I haven't had the courage to write.
So now when I write a month later, a lot of details will be missed and so on and so forth.
Oh well.

So I went to Finland from the 15th to the 18th of Septembre.
My best friend got married. :)
I got to put her make-up on, and if I may say so myself, I did a pretty good job at it. :)
It was really awesome how they had planned it all.
I got to meet new really really nice people I plan to stay in touch with. I'm so happy about that.

Oh, I asked for a raise ^^
Finally ! After so long, building up to courage to ask it, how I would ask it, finding the right moment... And now that it's done, I can proudly say that planning and stressing really did matter a lot, because for my raise, I got a NO.

Yup.
Refused.
Denied.
Thank you, come again.
Apparently I need to ask again in January. Fuck this shit.

I was a tad disappointed if you want my opinion. Oh well...

Oh on the good news, I've started doing lash extensions ! :D
I suck bad, but I'm still allowed to do 'em ! yay :D
And I'm being formed in electrolysis.
Ha. Bigger raise, here I come.

So I started Zumba classes !
I'm going with a friend's girlfriend, Cat. She's nice, but I'm afraid we won't be besties. Dunno why. I feel she's reserved around me. Oh well.
Zumba is nice :D

Oh and a while back, I decided I'd contact my friends all around the world. So I sent each one a different e-mail, FB message, letter etc.
Out of 5, 2 answered, and since my second message, no one has written back.
Hmph. Busy lives.
Kinda like me, I know I should update my blog more often, but I don't do it, why? Because it takes time and energy. Yeah, hitting the keys on the board uses energy +10.

Oh well.
Until next time !

Here's a lovely cover of a Beyonce song.
It's actually a song that when it came out, started playing in my head whenever I saw or thought of Olivier. The words couldn't be more true.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Oopsie-daisy

Day 6.

We left Fouly and all I can remember was climbing too much and too high and just wanting to be arrived. Our arriving point was at Champex-Lac, a nice town at 1466m.
Actually, we just descended the whole way. And then we climbed at the very end.
I can just remember bitching and whining the whole trot to the camping site, at the faaaaar end of the town.

We waited for an hour for the camping to open, checked in, installed our tent and went for a swim in the huge lake. It was scorching hot and the water was sooooo COLD. But it still felt good.
We wrote post cards that we sent the same day but which found their way to their addresses a week after. Talk about snail mail.

After that we went to eat at a restaurant and paid way too much for melted cheese and bread (fondue and croûte). Cost too much too. Was yummy tho :)
Sleep came easily afterwards.

Day 7.

We packed the tent and left for Trient.
It was pretty hard, it climbed a lot and it was really really hot.
The trail went through a few small Swiss towns. One which had a small house with it's lawn filled with garden elves. Horrid.

Our trail ended at Trient at 1310m
, in a cosy, very cheap shelter.
Of course, that too was at the very end of the town.
It was perfect with a kitchen, a big wash room and bunk beds.
We left our stuff and went to have ice-cream in a near-by "bar" to congratulate ourselves on our terrible day.
It felt nice to sleep in a room filled with people we had already seen plenty a-time during our tour.

Day 8.

We started to day walking with an israelien group of 4 people.
They were nice, we had met them the very first day at Col du Bonhomme, so we had started chatting along the way.

All I can say about the day that it was scorching hot AGAIN and that I had a bad day that day.
I felt gutted and even more so when we had climbed to Col de Balme at 2191m at taken pictures where we jumped.
I hated seeing myself in them, I felt so ugly and fat. So I was very very gutted, my feet hurt, my knees were fucked and I was insanely tired.
I had a lot of trouble walking that day, I kept crying and bitching and stopping for breath.
I guess I had a panic/angst attack. I couldn't breathe.
And to make things worse, while descending very narrow man-made wooden steps, I finally twisted my left ankle that had tried suicide for a few days now.

My ankle did an "L" with a nice big dull sound.
Tears swelled in my eyes, and I had the scare of my life. Bizarrely, it did not hurt.
I just picked my sniveling self up and kept going. 2 hours to go.
We finally stopped at Argentière, at a nice gite that served really good food at 1380m.
We toured the nearby town a bit but just went to buy a few apples. They were not very good tho...

Day 9.

We had breakfast and left for La Flégère at 1857m. Before arriving, we had climbed Le Lac Blanc at 2352m.
It was really fun because we climbed ladders a bit of the way, it changed for all the boring walking :D And we saw a mountain goat with its baby. Hihih.
Refreshing.

Upon arriving at La Flégère, it was 11.30 am. Early.
I looked at Olivier, who looked at me then looked at the map and looked me again.
I told him that I preferred continuing walking since it was still early. 5 more hours, and we'd have to climb till Le Brévent 2152m.
Easy peasy japaneasy.

It was horrible.
My GOD it was horrible. The sun in our backs, the weight on our shoulders.
We suffered.
When we finally arrived at the shelter we were camping next to, on the road descending to Les Houches, I was over joyed. Not only because we finally STOPPED, but also because we had a magnificent view of the Mont Blanc. Royal.

Dinner was soupe, spaghetti, omelette and apple pie crumble without the pie or the crumble. Just a silly biscuit.
This was our last night on the trip. HEHEEEE!!!

Day 9.

The descent was quite rude.
Very steep and difficult on the already broken knees.
After 2 hours we finally arrived at the town of Les Houches at 908m where we stopped to eat breakfast. Bread, cheese and pastries for later, bought at a boulangerie.

Our trail passed through Le Col de Voza at 1653m to descend to les Contamines-Montjoie at 1164m.
We passed by a mountain slope where we had gone to toast with Olivier's parents on Saturday upon our arrival on the 13th of August.
So we sat down on the exact rock we had sat on 10 days earlier and took a picture of us toasting with our water bottles.
We even called his dad to tell him we had almost finished. First he didn't believe him but once he did, he insisted on talking to me.
He wanted to congratulate me from the bottom of his heart because frankly, he never would've thought I could actually pull through and finish the trail.
....
Umm.. gee, thanks. I guess?

Anyways, we still had a long way to walk so away we fled.

The sun felt hotter than ever on the cloudless sky and walking on a cement road did not help. We raced to every shadow we could see on our trail.
After a looooong climb it descended. And kept going downwards. And just kept going.
GAH.

At 10 hours of walking, I had really had enough.
I was aching all around, my foot was killing me, slashing me with pain at every step and my knees felt like buckling at any second.
I wept. While walking, I wept.
Out of frustration, out of pain, of fatigue, I wept.

For one more hour we walked before arriving at our starting point, Olivier's parents' summer house.
Throw the bag down.
Kick off the shoes.
Collapse on the sofa.
Tear yourself up from the sofa and take a shower.
A long, hot shower.
Tend to your smelly decaying feet.
Rest.
Go eat a huge raclette at the nearest restaurant.
Switch off the alarm, collapse in your bed and SLEEP.

Aaah....
The next day we drove back home, took us 7½ hours, thanks to the traffic jams near Paris.
It was good to be home and to be able to sleep in our spanking brand new huge blue loft bed !!!!
AAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

The End.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Oopsie - la suite

So. Day 3.

It was supposed to be an easy day. Walking 3-4 hours, sleeping at a camping site and visiting the town of Courmayeur for some notion of a vacation.
We walked +7 hours and were DEAD before arriving to the camping site.

It started out great, walking slowly at my pace, getting excited and weirdly proud of myself because I didn't need to stop to catch my breath and all that crap.

It was a beautiful day and we even took endless pictures trying to catch us jumping in the air with the mountains in our backs. Took us a while and a lot of thigh muscle.After having walked for like 4½ hours, we started to wonder why we hadn't arrived yet.

When we arrived at the small shelter called Maison-Vieille at Col de Chécrouit at 1956m hence on top of a ski cliff, we saw the camping site La Sorgente on the left side and Courmayeur on the right side. There was just a couple of hundred meters altitude in the way.
Climbing down took more than an hour, even tho it was really really steep. And we even got lost before finding the right path down.
And to boot, the camping site was like the one farthest away, at 1510m.
7½ hours in total. I did not stop grumbling.

We were dead. We checked in, took a quick beer, left our bags in the camping site and took the bus to Courmayeur.

Since Olivier had sworn never to step into our tent EVER again - truth be told, he wanted to slice it, burn it, jump on it's ashes and bury it under a huge pile of shite.
So a new tent had
to be bought.
Of course, we set the budget to 100€, no need to get a fancy one, something basic and solid.
There were quite a few shops specialized in mountaineering pass times, but only one that sold tents. So we asked the kind vendor to show us a nice tent that was waterproof, not too heavy and easy to assemble.
230€.
I had to stop his explications to ask him whether he had anything cheaper.
Nope.
I guess my shock, disappointment and puppy dog-pity-me filled stare did the trick because he gave us a 15% discount, lowering the price to 195€.
We still needed to go drink beer before having the courage to hear the ka-ching of his till.

At least we had a spanking new tent. A La Fuma tent. A very very good tent. I made everything easier. Now we have to go camping again, can't leave an expensive piece of tissue to rot away in a corner.

I didn't even get to eat a real Italian gelato. I was so disappointed. Even today I can't stop thinking about it. Sigh.

Day 4.

Weird, I don't even remember what day 4 was like... Wait !
So we had to pass by Courmayeur to start the day. I climbed up reeeeaaalll high, luckily in a forest because the sun was blazing away.
We met the English couple again, actually we had met them the day before at Courmayeur too, it was pleasant :)
They stopped at a shelter called Bonatti I think.. at 2050m. We continued for another 3 hours, first straight, then a steep descent to Lavachey at 1642m and then climbing up to the shelter Elena at 2062m.
Death was not far. I was so broken I had a hard time taking a shower. I ached everywhere.
My knees had already started to ache because of the steep descents and my right foot that has a deformation + a toe that broke in 2 places 2 years ago was decidedly NOT happy with all the stress it was put under.

We ate and went to sleep.
We slept in a big hall of a room filled with bunk beds amidst to some Swiss who managed to wake us all up in the morning. Gah. I showed them tho the next day. I deliberately put more speed into my legs when I saw them approach to gain in distance. HOHOHOHOH.
Yes, I'm not a good loser. Gave me a good reason to give me the right to buy Swiss choco tho once we stopped at one of their too-expensive towns.

Day 5.

I honestly have trouble remembering the route.. I remember there was a fairly long climb, and that's it.
Ah right, that's it.
We entered the Swiss territory, passing by Le Col de Ferret at like 2550m. That was the highest point of our trip.
From that point on, it just went down hill. Just the trail, everything was fine besides :D

It was a really easy day, we walked like 4 hours and I was surprised that it was over for the day when we "suddenly" stopped at the camping site of Les Glaciers at La Fouly at 1660m.
We took the opportunity to go eat at a fancy restaurant (well kinda the only one in that small excuse for a village) and do some "grocery shopping" (a bag of mixed nuts&dried fruit, chocolate and some more chocolate). Olivier was the only one that ate at the restaurant because the restaurant obviously didn't want me to eat.
We ordered and 2 minutes after they came to tell me that they were out of my order.
Ok, I ordered something else, and again they came to tell me that it wasn't possible. So I stared blankly at the nervous young waiter and told him that I guess I wasn't eating then.

Olivier ordered this thing called Croûte Valaisienne, a mix of cheese, meat, fruit and berries. We stared at it in wonder. It cost too much to boot.
See, that's him staring at it.

Back at the camping site, we checked our mails and surfed the internet a bit for the moderate price of 2€/h.

We ate a later dinner of miso soup mixed with rice noodles and coconut milk powder with a side dish of dried sausage. It was reeeaaallly good.
The night was calm and the dreams pleasant.

Oops.

This is me being insanely lazy.

The right moment has never arrived for updating (yeah right, I have plenty of time to sleaze around, playing video games or reading or eating or just being me a doing nothing) but I decided that today was the day !!

I might cut this update in 2 parts, we'll see how much crap I can muster out of my useless memory and write down. I make everything up as I go.
So here we go !

VACATION:
It was great. Couldn't have been better. I've never had so much fun on a vacation ! So relaxing, easy peasy ! Would do it all again in a heartbeat ! Yay for Mont Blanc! A Breeeeeze!

.....

All of that was a LIE.
It was horrible.
I suffered until I was afraid to die.
Then when I continued to suffer, I was getting afraid of not being able to die.

Ok, maybe that's exaggerating it a wee bit. But it was pretty horrid.
The scenery was magnificent tho. It was worth the pain.

Ok, our initial plan was to walk 5-6 hours a day, have only the strict minimum weight (me 8kg, he 12) and enjoy it.
In truth we walked 6-8 hours per day, and carried 14 and 17kgs. Oh and don't forget the water.

Day 1:
It rained a bit. We left, bright and early, being sent off by Olivier's parents, all smiles and bubbling with excitement. I walked 10 meters in my hiking boots - that I HAD walked with on several occasions - and had to stop because they were hurting my right heel too much.
I had to cut up a foam insert to pad up me heel with the help of medical tape.
And off we went.

I kept taking pictures of the mountains because well, I had never seen mountains before arriving to Les Contamines from where we started our tour.
So it rained. And we started climbing this really steep hill. That kept going and going and going.
And finally, it became less steeper. But then it climbed again.
I was out of breath so easily that it was depressing. Olivier just kept on going, it didn't really seem to faze him.

After 6½ hours of climbing, we finally arrived at the shelter house that marked the end of walking for day 1. We started out at 1200 metres and stopped at 2500m. Do the math.

So the first night we ate at the shelter but slept in our tent. The grub was good and there was plenty of it. The night was cold and humid (we slept in the clouds) and our tent sucked ass.
It was too small, too crowded with our bags in it, too cold and too damn non-waterproof. It rained inside the tent.
And Olivier had high altitude sickness which made him have trouble breathing thus making him move around all the time, panic and keep me awake. Poor baby. I did hate him for it tho :D
After a horrible first night, we were glad to wake up and continue our journey. Anything but staying in that tent. The sun rose to light up the valley where we had to descend.

Day 2.

This is the day I cracked and wanted to call it quits.
We had been walking quite some time with the blazing sun in our backs (funny thing really, the sun was ALWAYS behind us. ALWAYS) and climbing down and up the mountain hills.
We had been climbing this one specific road that snaked up as far as the eye could see when I couldn't take it anymore and I started crying.
I felt so weak, so disappointed in myself for not being able to follow at Olivier's pace.
I told him how bad it made me feel to see him run way far in front of me, not stopping to wait, and thinking that this wasn't something we were doing together but completely separately. I guess he understood because he put himself behind me and let me decide the proper pace for me. He kept telling me to slow down, to breathe deep and calm my eager to walk faster.
And it helped.

I no longer needed to stop for a breather every 5 minutes and I was finally finding it fun and pleasant. YAY! I felt happy about doing it with him not next to him.

For the second night, we stayed at the shelter Elizabetta which was on the side of Italy !
We met a nice English couple whom we saw every day after that. It felt nice to be able to say hi and compare the suffering with people going thru the exact same thing.

The night was spent in the same room as everyone else, there was just these looooong wide wooden boards on the side of the walls where everyone slept next to their neighbors. It was funny. What wasn't funny was the big group of Asians on the other side of the room that wouldn't shut up. Or stop opening the balcony door to let the freezing air in. GAH.
And in the morning when THEY woke up, they just switched to lights on when everyone else was still sleeping. I think they were hated by many.

I'll write more when I come back from watching a rugby match.

Friday, August 5, 2011

One week.

That's what's left until I'm on vacation.
Let's not talk about Oliv' since he's been on vacation since yesterday evening.
I hate him.

Bro&Sis's visit went well, everything was a-ok.

Nothing new really to report, I just can't wait to be on vacation and to go wake up in the Mountains of Mist - I mean die, and Mont Blanc.
I went shopping for dried stuff last Tuesday. I bought lotsa dried meat and veggies :)
We have 11 days of walk during which we'll eat 4-5 times in a refuge. I can't wait. It's going to be disgusting.

I think I've been cursed. I never get the chance to ask for a raise.
Beginning of the year : permanent make-up catastrophy.
Not long after that : Boss had family issues
Not long after that : I finally got my eyebrows !
Today : Due to heavy rain, the roof in the beauty salon was pierced and water was flowing down from the spotlights in the ceiling (warning : DANGEROUS). That means : REPAIRS = Boss loses money = I don't dare ask for a raise.
....Raise : not gonna happen.

gah...

I finished drawing n^2 yesterday !
Yihhaaaa.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Hotel

So here I am, lying in the bed of one of Hotel du Louvre's rooms, chillin', listening to music...
Hotel du Louvre you ask? Why yes, did I fail to mention that my siblings were staying at this ridiculously expensive hotel while visiting me? 29 € for breakfast, svp.

I was happy to notice that I'm not the only one who likes spending money, but I'm way out of their league. Today my sister would've wanted to buy a 6.500€ rug.
Which was on sale btw, so a major find.
Her husband on the other hand was not impressed on the other end of the phone line.
So no rug.

My sister is till slim and beautiful and my brother tall and charismatic. I wish I could say that he's still handsome, but he's let himself go (XXL), which is a real shame because he was really very good looking slimmer(M-L). Now he's starting to really resemble our dad :/ I should try to make a bet with him so that it might motivate him to lose a few kilos.. hmm.. I must tread this gently.

As a welcoming gift I offered my bro a massage Lomi Lomi and my sister a facial.
I think she was pretty bothered by it, she doesn't like staying lying down for long periods of time. Well anyways, she had no choice xD
Bro seemed to like his gift.

We've been walking from dawn till dusk (well almost) since yesterday. It's just a real shame for the weather, it's been raining everyday this week.. And it's July in Paris. What gives ?
My feet ache, but I enjoy it. I'll consider it training for my vacation. Knowing that we won't be walking for 10hrs each day..
I'm a bit worried because my right foot has started to ache. I feel a blunt pain after every step I take. I hope it won't bother me during my vacation....... that would SUCK ASS.

Note to self : make an appointment with a foot surgeon for a possible surgery in January-February.

I was thinking of forcing Olivier to come with me to a spa after our vacation. I think we'd enjoy a bit of relaxation.. for a good massage I'd be ready to pay the price. But let's think of that once we've reached our goal.

I met with a very good friend of mine after not having seen her for more than a year. It's complicated for us to find a date suitable for both. She's still pursuing her studies (she's not younger than me, she just decided to continue her studies whereas I decided that my ass hurt too much after 3 years on school chairs). I really really really like her. I wish we could see more.
And I hope she won't leave to Vietnam right after she's finished with her studies.

Why are all my friends in or from different countries ?! Why is separation inevitable in all my platonic relationships !? GAH.

Oh and we're going to Finland in September. I have my best friend who's getting married and well, you just can't do without your personal beautician/best friend ! HA! :D I'm excited.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Green Sunday

Today we went to pick berries and vegetables at this farm.
It was really fun to be able to know where the food you buy comes from since you get to rip it out of the bush it grows in and it and pay a fair price. Lets you get some fresh air too. :)

Olivier's having some tummy problems which can get a bit...troublesome from time to time. For ex we had to leave from his brother's wedding party early (before dessert!) which was a pity :/ Poor baby, at least he went to see the doctor - after having waited 1 week after the symptoms started.
Men.

Oh and I got my eyebrows tattooed!!! I'm so happyyyyyy!!!! Well the right one's waaaay too pale compared to the left one. My boss is highly disturbed by this fact. She wants to make it right asap, but we'll have to wait for them to heal first. Oh well, at least the form rocks (courtesy of Yours Truly).

I'm very excited since I'll be getting to see a friend soon! I hope at least, since she might be pretty busy seeing other friends.
And Bro&Sis are coming soon too!! I'm pretty excited about that too, especially since B's never been to see me here :)
I was thinking of offering them some quality care at my work place :)

Olivier made reservations for the cabins for our vacation. That's done so we now only have to hope for good health and lovely weather for the nights we spend in our tent :)
yihhaa...

Oh and I've spent too much money recently...oh the curse of the e-shopping.....
Gah.
But like always, it was worth it ^^

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Sunday, pained Sunday

Oh for fuck's sake.
I've managed to completely block my back. Yesterday I felt a slight discomfort, but in the morning, waking up, I couldn't even get myself to turn to one side :/
I felt like a friggin' turtle. One that screams of pain when fidgeting that is.
I am also incapable of lifting ANYTHING. Sometimes even lifting or moving my right hand can block my respiration. Walking sucks too.

So as we went grocery shopping with hunny, I did nothing, just pointed at the things that I wanted him to buy :D I moaned and groaned like a pitiful sack of meat and tried to survive in the horrible heat.

I've been drawing the first order for a week now (well actually just a few hours per day, not even every day). It's coming along nicely, just very slowly due to the perfectionist in me. And the fact that I SUCK at drawing ARMOR.
GAH.
The second order should - SHOULD - be easier. It's an Elf. So there.

Work has been good. Tiring, but good. I can't wait to get my eyebrows done.......I WANTS THEM!! It burns us to not have them!! My precioooooouuuuusssssssesssssss!!! GRAAUUUHHH!!

On a side note, Millenium films sucks ASS.

And young Patrick Swayze rocks my world.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Yihhaa!

My posts are getting rarer and rarer...
dude, this has got to stop.
So, what's happened since last weeks Tuesday.

I like to think that I'm getting closer to a girl that used to date a friend of Olivier's.
He dumped her and now I try to spend time with her so that she doesn't feel alone.
I like her and I hope she can see me as friend even after she's gotten over it.

Oh, the IUD mode is on !! I iz upgraded!!
Hurt like hell tho. I really wasn't prepared for it. I thought I was going to faint.
And the cramps lasted for a few days. Phew.
I don't even want to imagine what it's going to be like when they remove it............
Brr.

Umm.. what else.
I spoke of cameras at our beauty salon, they aired the shows (5x7mins) this week.
I hate myself.

Bro found me 2 d00ds who want me to draw their characters :D
I'm hyped.

That is all for now, nothing new.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

A quickie

I'm leaving for work soon, so this won't be very long...

Nothing much has happened, but here're the highlights :
We spent 2 days on our first real Spring Cleaning. I mean, we were just supposed to clean a bit and wash the windows, but I ended up reorganizing everything........ yay.
Now everything is so much prettier. Ah.
It's kinda disturbing in a way, it's so ... NOT messy.

Work is yay, I've just been.. well quite critique about my tattoos recently. I find I could do better. Must work on that.

My boss has the big blues, her husband left her for a patient of his. Asshole.

My brother&sister are coming to see me next month.
I feel like bro couldn't care less about coming, in fact I'm pretty sure he's coming because he knows someone (other than me) living here and wants to see her/him.

All is good with Olivier, my spirits are up and I feel really much better.
Oh! My cycle is back in business !! \:D/ Never been this happy to have it start..
I made an appointment for Friday for the IUD. Hoping it's good for this month...otherwise I'll have to try again next month... boo.

It's rainy and gray here. Not so bad, at least it's not too hot..
Anyways, that's all!

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Yo ho

Woah, it's been a while. :D
I guess I haven't been writing because there hasn't been anything really to write about.
Let's see if I can remember some high light from the past month.

Um, la Loire was nice.
My bike is lovely, I've been riding it 2x a week to work and back. It takes me like ~30mins one way and it gets my heart beating pretty fast. Not just because of all the pedaling but because of the cars dashing by. :D

Work has been calm.
I decided I wanted my eyebrows done in permanent make-up and by no other than my boss. She's just very busy and never has time for me when I ask. It kinda suck because I plucked my eyebrows to give them a better shape and now I have to draw them every morning. And I never manage to do the same thing as the day before. Gah. So it takes up precious morning time grrrr... Everyone has been complementing my eyebrows, so I know I'm making the right choice. I was sick and tired of everyone asking if I was sad when I wasn't, since my eyebrows are droopy. Grrr.

I finally finished a drawing for my brother I started like 2 months ago. ..... I'm a lazy bastard I know it. But today is a happy day and of course my brother isn't online to see it. Figures.

I think my body is angry at me for mistreating it. I mean since my depression (-10kg in 2 weeks), I've gained 13 back of which I've shed 2. And my normal cycle has yet to start again. It's been 3 months now and I am getting a bit impatient since I want to get my IUD in. So I called my gyno who gave a prescription for a 10 day treatment that should lure my period back to normal. I decided to wait until the end of this month to see if it should get the spark by itself or if it needs a boost. Gah.

I miss my friends.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Spring

So I didn't continue writing like I said I would..... oops.
I was just so tired.

So we went to see folding bikes.
I slipped on my Alice Crocs and took the train to Paris. After 15mins of walking, I started to feel funny in my shoes. 5 min more and I was dying to find a pharmacy.
Even with Compeed plasters walking was hell. We walked for more than an hour so you can imagine my pain. When we finally arrived at our destination, my feet were throbbing and I couldn't test the bikes. Oliv' did that for me.
After leaving the shop I limped to a bench and ripped off my shoes. My feet were covered in blisters and useless compeed-patches. I couldn't even put my shoes back on, just the sight of them made me want to throw them in a burning fire. Oliv' proposed letting me use his shoes and him using mine. I refused up front, the thought on him having to use lady ballerinas was out of the question. We then decided that I walk barefoot until finding a pair of shoes or socks.
We didn't find either, but we did find a pair of soft indoor ballerinas for 3,99€.
They saved my afternoon.

We followed our trail to Decathlon where I test drove their bike. It felt good, easy, and the folding didn't seem that complicated. We returned home and reserved the same bike I had tried but in a different color (70€ difference..).
Olivier went to get it since I worked that day (Saturday). I didn't get to see it until Monday when we returned from our weekend get away to the Loire.

We spent Easter in the Loire, where we stayed at a small fancy hotel, rode bikes to see the Castle of Chambord, had our picnic in front of a nuclear power plant (talk about romantic) and went to dine at Blois at a disappointing restaurant. I also managed to get drunk on 1 pint. Unheard of.

Monday we went to see an exposé using small patches of garden. It was outdoors and quite bizarre. It was ok, but well.. the weren't something my eyes would awe upon, they were just nice. That done we took the car to head home and were stuck 4½h in traffic. Jihhaaa.
Once home I got to see Hobbes (the name of my new bike) and Olivier, smiling like a silly kid, proudly gave me my 2-years anniversary gift.
Which I did not like.

And the evening went on in silence.

I can't help it, if I don't like something, I have to say it. I can't fake a smile thinking that "oh god, if I stay quiet, next year I might get something worse", so I have to be honest.
People tell me that I'm not polite, I don't take in account the other person's feelings - EXCUSE ME? Just because someone offers me crap without taking in account MY feelings, thinking smugly that "good thing I bought this decorated candle, it really shows how much effort I put into finding her a suitable gift" doesn't mean I have to accept it.
I HATE "forced personal gifts". Gifts that are bought just because a gift must be given.
It's different when you buy gifts for like when we did the Christmas party with my colleagues. The gifts were anonymous, so it was just fun :)

And I HATE useless "decorations". Unless it goes well with the apartment and it to my tastes.
Olivier bought me a Trousselier - fake plant decoration.
It is pretty, I even told him so when we saw it in a shop's window, but in no case did I want one for myself. It has nothing to do in our apartment. It doesn't look good anywhere.
And it costs too much for what it is.
I'd love to return it, but I can only exchange it for something. Looking at it only makes me angry. It's not supposed to be me who goes to buy my present, people who are supposed to know me - and know me WELL - should be capable of buying me something I like.
I've fixed the problem by telling my family that gifts are not needed, if they want to offer me something, they should either give me a) nothing b) a gift certificate c) money
Honesty, I prefer a).

So now I have this decoration staring at me that makes me fume.
Olivier was bizarre yesterday, feeling all sad and in need of pity. I got so angry at him that I almost took my bike and left. But I CAN'T take my bike out, I don't have a helmet and I don't have a lock for it. I told him I would've appreciated a helmet and lock more than a stupid dead plant decoration. So it made me even angrier.
He doesn't know how to talk clearly, only making me confused and even more angry. I hate that about him.
And he refuses to write down his thoughts to get the right phrase out.
And he claims it's really hard to know what to get me for a gift because he knows that I've told him on several occasions what I like or when I see something I like, I tell him, but he finds it really hard to write it down to remember it later.
Whatever.

Makes me really mad.
I should just buy him a stupid glass decoration as well. See how he takes it.
I almost regret using 2 days to get him tickets to see his favorite band.
Almost.

This week at work has been interesting.
We have France 5 for Magazine Santé filming us non-stop for 5 days. I feel they've filmed me most of all the other 10 girls. They came to film eyebrow tattooing, a foot care, a facial and they interviewed me separately.
Now for the eyebrow tattooing... My client had already a tattooing gone hideously wrong.
The shape was horrible and color as well. It was now the color or pale violet. brr..
So I had to draw eyebrows that a) followed the initial tattoo to cover the ugliness of it all b) had the shape that went well with the client's face c) had the right color d) didn't resemble the initial tattoo in the least
Easy.

It didn't make it any easier that the room I used was small, the lighting was crap and there was a camera filming my every more and recording my stupid voice.
Oh I did I forget to add that my client was scared shitless and fearing the worst ?!
Like I said, easy.

After the tattooing, the interviewed me on make up tattooing, my job, my likes and dislikes and such. The bizarrest question they asked was "Do you sometimes have clients that disgust you?"
Beg your pardon?
I don't clearly remember what I said, I just stammered something about the word being too strong for me to use and that it was appreciated if the skin we worked on was clean. And that sometimes we just wondered to ourselves why some people lack that basic hygiene.
I think I'll be getting a warning letter from my boss if ever they air it..............

Tonight, concert.

Friday, April 22, 2011

It's always raining in my head.

It's Friday and I have a day off.

I had my reasons for not writing, one of them being that I didn't want to, I was afraid of what I'd reveal with my writing.
Now that the storm has passed, my fears are gone.

I didn't want to go to Finland. I almost missed the plane because I took so long deciding whether to go or not. I dreaded it. I know, I was aching to go to Finland a month and so ago, but the situation changed. I gained weight. I gained back all I had lost.
I felt so ashamed of myself, so stupid, like a total loser. Everyone had known about my depression and my weight loss, but no one knew I had gained everything back.
So I didn't want to show myself.
Olivier had to convince my (by phone) to get my fat ass to the airport to see my family, otherwise I'd regret it.

I then finally packed my suitcase and left. I was at the airport 45min before the plane took off.
At least I didn't have to wait long.
I felt bad on arriving to Finland. Sure, I was happy to see my sister, my mom, but I couldn't shake off the shame.
I felt awkward.

I was really happy to see my friends. They made me forget about everything. To think that there's actually people who take to time and money to come especially to see me.. I don't know what to say. Except that I don't deserve it. But I'm more than happy that they did.
I bumped into Peter. I couldn't believe it at first when I lifted my eyes in irritation from the books-for-sale-bin to the figure hovering over me, only to lock eyes with someone I haven't seen since summer but who often and repeatedly appears in my mind for numerous reasons.
I felt like running away first for the briefest of times, but was then incredibly...relieved I guess. Like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders, like rays of sun after a long stay in the dark, like.. someone I needed to see.

We stayed at this café talking for like 1½ -2h. It was too short.
We talked about stuff new and old, about Ann-Mi, our relationships and plans.
I can talk about my pains with anyone who asks, but there are only a few with whom I can talk face to face and without feeling worried. Worried of being judged, looked down upon, frowned at, ignored etc.
He is one of those few.

He's the only one of my friends I saw twice during my short stay - and he didn't even know I was coming. Boy did I feel stupid and bad about it. I guess I didn't think he'd have time for me, or if his gf would permit the meeting, had she known it was me (I got this feeling she reeeeaaally likes me - or not). So I didn't want to be the reason for fights or trouble.
I'm just sad I missed Ann-Mi by a few days. Sucks major ass.

I went to see an optician whilst there. And surprise surprise, my vision HAS CHANGED.
Fucking useless over payed turds they have here in France, claiming to be eye doctors, having spent years honing their skills in the mystery known as the EYE. Well it's still seems to be quite a mystery for them!! For fuck's sake, I have to travel 1950 km to get to hear the phrase "Yes, your vision has changed". I felt like crying of joy when she said it, not looking at me like I was so ignorant slut not worth her time and just waiting to get her hands on the 70€ she charges for a bad job.
Furking turds...

After coming back from Finland I was exhausted. Not just by the traveling but also by the fake smiles I had to flash and the bad feelings I had to disguise. For a while I really felt like letting go of everything, disappearing and the easy way out.
Even if I am a coward, I can't not think of the people and the pain I'd be leaving behind.
So I just sit here and let myself rot, causing pain to Olivier. I really don't understand why he bothers with me..

I was so incredibly tired this week that I asked to have my Tuesday off. It was granted, thanks to non-existing clients. I was able to stay home and rest. My back pains have reappeared, it's not a funny feeling. It fucking aches.
And to make it worse, Tuesday I couldn't rest well because they were fixing up the plumbings upstairs. And I could rest even less when they came to drill the wall in our toilets. Yihhaa.
The head plumber (he looked like Luigi with his thick black mustache) just kept cursing our building to the deepest darkest corners of Hell while at the same time hoping not to burst the main water line. Whoop-di-doo.

I'll write more later today, we're leaving to see foldable bikes. yay.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

That which I once called home, sweet home

Wheeeee!!
Finland tomorrow!
God the time has just flown !! :D I'm just so glad to get a breather and see my family and friends. However short a time it may be..
Oh I received my Fauchon order ! Whew, good thing they got here in time otherwise I wouldn't have known what to bring to my friends in Finland or what to do with 7 boxes of Fauchon goodies if I received them too late. :D

I went to buy my UID today. On the packaging it looks pretty weird, kinda like an inwards turned claw. I've always just seen the T-formed types, so it's slightly freaking me out. Oh well, now all I have to do is wait for the right moment. If it ever comes..

Yesterday we went to bed at 4 am. "Why," you ask, "I thought you worked on Wednesdays?" Well the reason for that is my heart's love for rugby - a sport that can sometimes prove to be a total bitch. You love it, it breaks you.
And this time it broke his nose.
Yeah yeah, I know, he broke his nose like 5 months ago. Sure, it just swelled up a bit, but this time he took it up a notch and managed a lovely gash to make sure it wouldn't go unnoticed. Broken AND open.
GAH.
So we drove to the ER and waited. And waited. And then we waited some more.
Good thing we're used to these visits so I prepared rations (p'tits déjs) and books. Oliv' is reading The Wheel of Time series and I'm devouring the first of the Stieg Larsson's "Millenium" trilogy. A very good book so far, at moments disgusting, but very captivating. I almost feel the need to skip some lines to advance faster to the conclusion :D

Work was good again today. Bizarrely I didn't feel tired at all. It must be the sun.
We've had lovely weather lately, from +17 to +24 but with an unwanted heaviness in the air. I sure hope we're spared of the canicule this summer. Otherwise I just may die.
And I'll die even more on top of Mont Blanc! I must be insane to do it....

Oh speaking of MB, Oliv' started planning our route on Sunday while I went to get a massage and he stayed in a bar drinking beer :)
Sunday was nice. We walked from our place to the massage parlor (less than 2h) and discussed this and that on our way there. I begged his pardon in advance because I know that whilst going through the trekking I'll be smelly, disgusting, sweaty, whiny, bitchy and ugly (aka my charming self) for the whole 10-12 days it'll take us to complete the trek. He promised to be my equal :)

The massage was.. interesting.
It was a tiny place (it was actually pretty big, just crammed full with massaging rooms) and all the girls working there were Asian who didn't understand a word of French.... Smells of underpaid, abused labor here...
So anyways, the massage was - like I said - interesting.
It hurt.
I really hurt.
And once it was over, "it's over *click says the lightswitch*, good day *exit*". You're left trying to regain your eyesight after a blinding awakening to reality and while you're trying to clothe yourself, the boss of the joint first sees you half naked through the slightly open door ("Salut, ça va? ça était?") and then 5 seconds after that tries "by mistake" to install another client in the booth that you are in ("Oh I didn't see you there").
I went with Anne and Sandra. Anne hated her massage and Sandra was more accepting.
We joined Oliv' around his beer and had a nice time chitchating about various things.
Sandra left with her car, we walked Anne to the train station, started to walk home but then realized it was really too late to walk 2 hours to get home, make food and eat. So we took ze train and lived happily ever after.
Well, atleast we ate well.
And watched I love you, Philip Morris and Final Destination 3. ;)

I can't wait to be in Finland.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Pizza Sunday

Ah, a week (more) has passed since my last post.

Center Parc was quite nice, it was just a weee bit disappointing. There were quite a few water slides that were closed, and the only open ones were of the lowest thrill.
It took us 2 hours before we'd had enough.
We had our picnic in the car after which I fell asleep. :D

We also did this Tree Adventure thing that could've been nice if not for this one lady in the previous group that took 15 mins to get through one course when others did it in 2 mins.
Gah.

At work all is good, nothing to report really. Other that I have my vacation dates for August and Christmas !! August is for the Tour du Mont Blanc and Christmas is for Finland :)
It's also been busier so the days go by faster. And the sun has come out of hiding. :)

I did my 4th session of GMP Friday ! It was almost unbearable ! The temperature rose up to 56^C and I was sweating out of my skin. I left a pool of myself behind...
I pity the person who had her appointment right after me..

We went to the Salon des randonnées to find information on the Tour du Mont Blanc. We find some and then went on to buy 50€ worth of saucisson. Miam miam :D
Before the saucisson we are weak indeed..

My moods have been swingy lately and I don't like it. :/ I'm also a bit late and it's starting to eat at me. But it's not really so bad, I just hope that I get an appointment with my gynecologist for the IUD. We did some test and they all came out perfect so normally I just need to ring her for a "quickie" ;) and she'll gear me up.
I can't wait. :)
(for anyone who feels that reading about my visits to the gynecologist or about other intimate matters is "disturbing" or "unwanted", I invite you to quit reading my blog all together and to bugger off!)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Good news.

Nothing much to report.

Except that we're going to CENTER PARC this weekend !!! :DDDD
(I've never been there but I hear it's great!)

So the weekend was pretty quiet, Olivier came back on Friday and played on Sunday.. so..
It's been pretty quiet at work, and I noticed that I started to get depressed again, so I cracked and yelled at Olivier to make him understand that it wasn't ok, that I felt like he hadn't given a damn about me for the last few months, that he had given too much of his time to his work/sport rather than his girlfriend etc.
I cried a bit too because it made me so sad to think that this was it, there was nothing more to us.
I told him to talk to me, to do things with me.
At the end, it seemed to be ok, but still painful.

The next day he sat me down and told me he had been doing some thinking. What he had discovered had sickened him, he had understood that he was giving too much of his strength and efforts for a boss who doesn't do shit himself, and that his sport had taken too much of his time.
He had neglected me and was more than sorry about it. He hoped nothing was yet lost and that we could continue our journey together.
As we were talking, we were also folding the clean laundry.
Just doing something small and stupid made me so happy, just because we were doing it TOGETHER. I told him that and he agreed that it was indeed refreshing.

I then had the greatest idea : AquaBoulevard!

He bested my greatest idea with CenterPark!
(Well I didn't know it existed so it was a 50/50 win)
Since we have Sunday AND Monday free exceptionally, we booked a hotel and are going to Les Bois-Francs.
We decided not to stay IN CenterPark, but to book a hotel that was close by because we didn't want to be confined to one place for 2 nights (+ we save +100€ by doing that).

So yes ! It'll be great. We'll have so much fun, and that's what we really need at the moment :)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Feeling good.

I enjoy days like today.
I got up at around 11am, the sun was shining, the birds were (surely) singing (but their song was replaced by the sound of passing trains) and spring was in the air.
Spring. Spring cleaning.
Oh shite.

I decided to motivate myself and start with the kitchen. Dishes. Sink. Counters. Oven. Vacuum. Mop. Air. Plants. Stove. Trash. Laundry. Oh crap.
After having scrubbed the sink until it shone, I decided to take a break and try calling Peach Up, a body care institut.
I had purchased a coupon on Groupon for 6 sessions of GMP (Gym Métabolique Passive) with access to the sauna for an unlimited time. I decided I deserved some relaxation.
The whole session happens in this machine that bears a close resemblance to a huge egg. You get in, buck naked, and lie there perfectly still while the egg does it's magic: it heats up up to 50 degrees for a duration of 30 mins (the whole thing lasts for 45mins, it takes ~15min to heat up to max), making you sweat like a fat pig before Christmas. Apparently it's supposed to detoxify your body and relax all your muscles thanks to the heat and the ultrasounds the machine produces.
They also claim that you burn 800-1000 calories due to the sweating but I don't really buy that :) I just want to relax my back muscles that have been killing me for the last few weeks.

So I got my appointment for the same day, which surprised me since it was a special offer (79€ instead of 490€) and I was expecting to have a hard time make any appointments before next year. I booked it for 3 o'clock and to try to be a bit active, I decided to walk the distance. I checked on google maps and it was only an hour's walk.

Once I arrived there, 15mins early, I was received by a lady who seemed genuinely nice. I gave her the coupon and asked to book all the remaining 5 appointments since I like to be prepared :)
No problem, the next one is for tomorrow and the following ones are always on my days off. Lovely.
She takes me to this small room that has The Egg, a small shower and a chair. She puts on the timer on the machine, shows me how to open and close, gives me a towel, tells me to undress and to lie down in the machine. Then she leaves me to it.
I am left alone in the small room with little lighting and the timer that's counting down the minutes (46). I quickly undress and slide in The Egg. I close the cover using the buttons inside it and wait. I can stare at the timer and temperature screens every time I open my eyes, but I just decide to close them and see what happens.
I must say, I feel a bit silly, lying there buck nekkid while waiting for something to happen.
While the minutes tick away, I realize that this is the first time I've paid for a body treatment for my own pleasure. I've done one (1) facial once before I started my studies to be a beautician, but never have I paid to get a massage or even a manucurie. Just thinking about it makes me chuckle. I take care of others, not of myself.
So needless to say, I'm quite proud of myself for buying the coupon :D

And then it starts to get a bit warm. I check the temperature : 34,5 degrees.
Good grief I really am not the type to lay on a hot beach for hours on end. I'm used to a sauna but it's not hot enough for it to be relaxing. When the temperature hits 50, I've been swimming in my sweat for 5 mins already.
It's a horrible feeling, sweating. Feeling the sweat drops slide down your skin. I have this horrible urge to swipe it away, but the sweat drops are everywhere ! And there's not much room to move in the machine so I just lay there, trying not to concentrate on the icky feeling. Even my face is starting to sweat, and it's not even in the machine. Gah. I need that shower ! What ?! 25 mins to go ?! Ok, relax, enjoy and feel the muscles in your back loosen up.
Can't feel a thing.

7 minutes to the end, I pass my hand across my rib cage and feel dead skin cells scrubbing off. And it hits me: I can do a body scrub while in the machine ! It'll be useful AND it'll kill time.
And boy do I seem to need one. The skin just peels off. Kinda icky, I know, but I'm really glad to be rid of all that dead weight (haha, get it? Dead and weight ? ...ok.)
I decide to bring a loofa to my next session.

Ca y est! The machine beeps to tell me 46 mins have passed and could I please remove my sweaty ass out of it. I jump to the shower and welcome the cool spray of water on my skin. Ok, too cool, must warm it up.
I quickly rinse off all the dead skin cells and sweat, towel myself dry and get dressed. It feels horrible to put on a sweater 2 minutes after 50 degrees, but outside it's like 2 degrees so I can use all the cover I can find to not fall sick.
I leave the room and return to the front desk. I ask about the unlimited sauna, because due to some problems, the sauna is not available. It saddens me because I would've wanted to relax in one as well, but oh well. I guess I could try to contact Groupon to see if I could get one free session or something because the offer doesn't correspond to what was promised. Dunno. Will see. :) Might not, not my style.

I returned home after that. And ate too many dried prunes. And dates. And am feeling sick. But am still eating dates.
Ok, I stopped now, I ran out of dates.

So I continued my cleaning. Everything is spanking clean now. It's just the bathtub that I didn't have the courage to scrub, might do it tomorrow.

My appetite is returning to me. Well, if it's sweet stuff then it definitively has. Baaad bad. I'll be gaining everything back in no time. Must not buy dates anymore. Most nut. Nut. Mmm, nuts..

So Olivier is coming back home tomorrow evening.
Before he arrives, I have an appointment with Vincent (he cracks me up), The Egg and the eye doctor. And maybe I'll go do a tour at the local Bio Coop shop.. I understand that the best sugar one should use is dehydrated sugar cane juice. Otherwise known as Sucanat, Rapadura or sucre brut.
Olivier has plans to bake muffins, so if we use the better sugar to replace plain white sugar, we don't need to use the same quantity of it and it's supposed to taste better. Note to self : go buy soft salty caramels at Lidl. Miam.

And to end this post, I stole this query from a blog of a friend of mine :
Have I ever…

snuck out of the house [x] Yeah, it was when we still had our summer house in Hanko, I was little, mad at my parents for some silly thing, influenced by the girl next door and daring. I didn't go very far before getting bored. My parents didn't even have time to get worried :D
gotten lost in your city [x] I'm worse than Ryoga from Ranma½..
seen a shooting star [x] Yessirree I have
been to any other countries besides the united states [x] Well I come from Finland, am living in France.. I have been to the US, the Canaries, Spain, Sweden, Estonia..
had a serious surgery [ ] Nothing to be worried about. Have been operated on whilst under anesthetics, but for nothing serious
taken a shower with a member of the opposite sex [x] Why yes, several times even.
gone out in public in your pajamas [x] And I totally rocked 'em
kissed a stranger [x] I don't have enough fingers to count the strangers ;)
hugged a stranger [x] Give me alcohol and I transform into the Hug Fiend.
been in a fist fight [ ] Um, well it did involve pulling of hair and trying to stuff a black board sponge down the other person's throat, but I don't think that counts?
knocked someone out [ ] Maybe with my hung over morning breath, but never with my fists ;)
been arrested [ ] No sir, I am a Saint.
done drugs [ ] Like I said, Saint. My only drugs are chocolate, salmiakki, liquorice and dried nut&fruit. Hey, that stuff can kill you too.
had alcohol [x] And plenty of it. Ah, those were the days..
laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose [x] Water, mostly.
pushed all the buttons on an elevator [ ] Nope, I'm too much of a Goody two-shoes to do that.
made out in an elevator [ ] Err.. probably.. I can't remember.
swore at your parents [ ] I have never sworn directly at my parents, but a few times I've used foul language to explain an unnerving situation to them. Usually it had to do with France.
kicked a guy where it hurts [ ] Not to my knowledge, no. Maybe by accident?
been in love [x] Am.
been close to love [x] Yup, an man did it kill me.
been to a casino [ ] Never had that priviledge no.
been skydiving [ ] I think I'm not brave enough for that.
ran over an animal and killed it [ ] Nope. Seen a sparrow hit the windshield when Dad was driving. And heard a rabbit go pop under the tires (again, Dad was driving)
broken a bone [ ] Nope. I'm too sturdy for that.
been high [ ] Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower I have.
given someone a bruise [x] Oh most likely.
skinny-dipped [x] Well I do come from this cold county that has this tradition with the Sauna.. :)
skipped school [x] Only when I really didn't feel like it would change much even if I went to class. And I always felt bad about it. So at the end I did go. Never skipped the whole day. Never will, SCHOOL IS OVER !
flashed someone [ ] Nothing to flash, unless it's with a flashlight.
had oral surgery [ ] Nope, just braces.
seen a therapist [ ] Funny you should ask.. Nope, but it's been recommended to me.
done the splits [x] Oh yes when I was young and on the road to become a super gymnast. That's before I discovered the joys of laziness.
played spin the bottle [x] Yes ! Not much, but I have.
gotten stitches [x] I guess so. When I was little I liked to climb to high places. Then once, I fell on my face and my teeth pierced my lower lip. I guess you'd need stitches for that.
drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour [x] I used to drink lots of milk before. Now I have some difficulties digesting it.
bitten someone [x] I like to taste my preys.
been to Niagara Falls [ ] Can't say I have no.
gotten the chicken pox [ ] Err, I've had a pox, don't know which one.
kissed a member of the opposite sex [x] Oh and how many, you should ask ! (don't ask, I don't remember)
kissed a member of the same sex [x] And I even have a photo to prove it!
crashed into a friend’s car [ ] God no.
been to Japan [ ] I wish.
ridden in a taxi [x] Um, who hasn't?
been dumped [x] A few times yes.
shoplifted [ ] I keep telling you, I'm a Saint.
been fired [ ] Nope, but I quit before they could fire me.
ever had a crush on someone of the same sex [x] No, but I've had a few weird dreams..
had feelings for someone who didn't have them back [x] I am a girl.
stole something from your job [x] I wouldn't call it stealing.. it's more of a "taking something completely usable/edible that was thrown in the trash and given it to people who'd appreciate it".
gone on a blind date [x] Hohoho.. a few times yes. It was pretty funny :D
lied to a friend [x] Yes. For their or my own good.
had a crush on a teacher [x] Not really a crush, but I did appreciate some more than others.. ;)

celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans [ ] Nope, neva been.
been to Europe [x] :D
slept with a co-worker [x] um.. 3 of my former boyfriends were also 3 former co-workers.. and no, they did no know each other nor did they work with each other in the same place.
been married [ ] No ring on this finger.
gotten divorced [ ] Haven't got the chance yet.
had children [ ] Do children in Sims count ?
seen someone die [ ] I've seen animals die.
been to Africa [ ] Nope.
driven over 400 miles in one day [ ] Have driven for 4½ hours straight on a motorway, going 130 km/h.
been to Canada [ ] Canada!
been to Mexico [ ] No, hombre.
been on a plane [x] Have even flown on a few.
seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show [x] Yup and I don't like it.
thrown up in a bar [ ] In the toilets, yes.
purposely set a part of myself on fire for amusement [ ] No, but some of the boys from my former class once amused themselves with setting their arms on fire. They seemed to be enjoying themselves. Even the one who let his arm burn for a wee bit too long..
eaten sushi [x] And I love it, especially the futomaki... :9
been snowboarding [x] Tried it a few times, I really liked it. Got bruised all over :D
met someone in person from the internet [x] Why yes, that's what led me to meet Olivier.
been moshing at a concert [x] Sure, I was a rebel in my youth.
had real feelings for someone you knew only online [x] Yup.
taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself [ ] Gah, hell no.
been in an abusive relationship [x] Well it was mentally abusive.
lost a child [ ] The kid in Sims died because I didn't wash him often enough..
gone to college [ ] Err.
graduated college [ ]
done hard drugs [ ] Done an overdose of chocolates+salty nuts
tried killing yourself [ ] I did think about it often in my younger days.
taken painkillers [x] Only when it really hurt.