Lazy

I've let my blog down.. I'm sorry Blog !
I really don't know why, but I just never take the time to update my blog, even if I'd have something to say.
And when finally I do update, I no longer have something to say.
Gah.

So let's see.. Me and Olivier.
It's getting better.
After a final breakdown a few weeks back, after having spoken to my mom, Timo, my sister and finally my dad, I understood I was afraid to get hurt again, thus putting my heart in mode "shields up!".
So no emotions entered and none exited.
My heart froze.

I managed to put down the shields, and am working towards getting back my emotions and feelings for Olivier. Petit à petit my heart is warming up. Maybe it'll be scorching hot after a while, who knows.
Time will tell.

I'll be going to Finland in July for 5 days to see my mom. I really miss her and I kinda feel bad for not being there for her. I know it won't be for long, but it's something.. meh..
I'll give her some lash extensions, she'll like that :)
I wish I could give them to her on a regular basis..

Oh !
I decided to start my diet !
I will follow my cousin's advice and just limit the size of the portions I eat.
It worked for her and should work for me too :)
So I'll keep Blog posted on that.