Cold.

What is wrong is this country ?!

Why is it cold and raining ?!

Since Thurday night, I'm been fighting against an incoming flu.

I felt an urinary infection coming along - hop, I took Trimopan to block it from getting worse, then I felt my throat getting itchy - hop, I took a Burana to calm it down, then I started feeling cold - hop, double dose of Finrex (boy I'm lucky to have a doctor for a sister).

Then I wrapped Olivier's scarf around my neck (he doesn't use it), put on my stout woolen socks, my long jammies and went to bed.

The next day I woke up refreshed like a blooming flower.

Ok, I lied.

I couldn't sleep so I snuck out of the bedroom and spent 3 hours of insomnia on my computer, reading and TRYING to fall asleep.

I woke up drowsy and cursing myself for having too much will power. I had made an appointment with Vincent, our ostheo next door to our beauty salon at 9.45 am. And then I decided to pop in the salon for a body treatment.

So Vincent told me that due to a small scar under my lower lip, my whole body was unstabilized.

He made me crack - literally (sorry for the stupid pun) and eased a bit my lower back pains.

I made an appointment with him in two weeks.

Yay.

Then I went for my body treatment (1 hour of sleep and warmth) and then left to do some shopping. I bought a frilly short dress and a cute long sleeved top.

I love Promod by the way. Love it.

Olivier joined my afterwards and we went for a walk in Paris. I was so tired when we got home that I just crashed on the couch and went to sleep. I woke up at 7.30 pm, joined Olivier in the bed for 1 hour of nap and then got up at 8.30.

He ate and watched a weird Anime on TV.

We're better now. Not quite there yet, I haven't completely gotten over my depression yet even if I know I love him and that he'll always be there for me. I just...my body isn't yet ready for more than hugs, cuddles and a quick kiss. Other than that and it becomes difficult for me. Must be due to my bad past experiences. Hope it goes away soon..

I acknowledge the fact that I'm not completely well, mentally speaking. Might not classify as being a total nut case but I'm not completely stable either.

I have these bad periods during the year. Normally just once a year. Then it's better.

Just gotta think positive and not be beaten by the darkness.

At least I know there are hands that will pull me out of the darkest hole :)